Remembering the Good Times

Today marks the 1 year anniversary of my Grand-Daddy losing his 4 year battle with cancer. Words can't express how much I miss him, nonetheless I know he is in a better place where he's no longer suffering. I still can't believe its been a year already. Everything is still so fresh, in my mind, that it saddens me to put my thoughts into words.

The other day I was watching a video of my 2006 Champaign Party and when my Grand-Daddy's interview came across the screen I was taken back to the sadness I felt on the day I learned of his passing. It was so surreal to see him before I knew of his aliment, he looked healthy and happy. I was able to gain comfort in the fact that he shared such a milestone moment  in my life. I then began to recall all the good times we shared together with family and friends, which made me realize how much fun we had. So even though he is gone I won't dwell on losing him, instead I will remember the good times we shared and Thank God for blessing me with such loving person.

~~R.I.P. Grand-Daddy I love you!~~

I've placed my heart under lock and key...

...To avoid another let down! 

Sometimes it's better to just step back and let things happen instead of expecting them to happen. *Quote Me* 

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Moving Back Home!

Super excited to be moving back home tomorrow! Had a great school year and even better grades, but it's time I get to my city...10 hours & counting *Jumping for Joy*

Let's Play a Love Game ;)

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The game of love can be a dangerous one to play, yet still we fall in and out of love time after time. Even if it doesn't fully develop into "Love" people can still get hurt. You always have to remember that no matter how hard you try you can't teach an old dog new tricks. So maybe the solution is to get rid of the old dog and buy a new one!

All I want is to be able to trust every single person I come in contact with, but its just not possible. I'm the kind of person that trusts someone until they give me a reason not to. Many have told me that I'm just way too nice and when it comes to guys I need to put my foot down more often. However, I still give people chance after chance only to be let down in return. It seems like in every situation, no matter how much I give, I gain zero reciprocity.


Im not saying I do everything perfectly, we all make mistakes but it takes a mature person to own their mistake. Realizing you did something wrong is only half the battle, confessing it is the next step. Compounding your problem by lying only adds insult to injury. Just own your sh*t because what's done in the dark will eventually come to light!

"Love can be a dangerous game to play... " *sips tea*

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Writing is Therapeutic

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Most of the time I like to consider myself a level headed person. Yes, I have my moments where I can't stand to breathe the same air as some people, but a lot of the time I enjoy those around me. There is nothing like having a strong support system made up of your closest friends and family members. Even on your worst day those loving people always seem to make things a little bit easier. However, there is a certain person in my life that I could really live without. I can't stand having to put on a fake smile and pretend that everything's okay when it truly isn't. Am I the only one thats ever had to do this? The worse part about this situation is having this particular person in my family.

I know I can't replace my gene pool, although when this person is around I really wish I could. Maybe I should feel guilty for thinking this way about someone who is so close to me, but the truth is I don't! Honestly this person has NEVER been there for me so its hard to even consider them family. We truthfully are only bonded by blood. Every time our paths cross I just want to smack the sh*t out of them and let them know how much of an asshole I really think they are. But for the sake and sanity of those closest to me I refrain from doing so. It just hurts me to know all the lies, and broken promises that have come from this person over the years. So its hard to keep from losing it when I look in the mirror and see so much of that person looking back at me.